"07.04.06
i wish i could already decide where to buy my ticket to, but i know that in all reality i'm gonna go to cr, and only have a vague fantasy, if you would call it that, if going to port."

i went to port.
i think i had a good time.
i know i did.
but there are some things about it i didn't want to tell myself i didn't like.

or maybe that's me saying this now... hindsight and all

give me booze.
give me junk.
give me something
anything
one thing
all the things
i`ve always wanted
but never had
it`s so sad
with a dead dad
and a mother
who is no father
but oh dear
what a drag
your brother is a fag
i don`t care
that you stare
`cause i don`t really give a fuck!

yeah, i'm having one of those right now, there must be something in the air :D

slept for 3 hours, had to wake up at 5:30am for work
saw 112 [give or take a couple] cars on my way to work
got a good parking spot
arrived and was the only student there

and then i had to pour, from a 5 gallon tub, waffle syrup into little itty bitty containers and set up for breakfast
and then i had to set up the kiosk
and then i made a whole bunch of coffees
i love the part where the milk foams a whole lot

and then i chilled and had to bus and pick up other people's trash 'cause they're not very smart college students and don't know where to throw their trash away
and then i had to cashier and people were super nice, maybe 'cause they were in the bible study group...

and then i had to put ice in the salad bar

and then i talked to some random people, and made a snowball!!!
and it was awesome but then it froze and was a small circular iceball

and then i taught a girl how to make coffees and was late for class
and when i finally left campus i was listening to this old cd i'd made way long time ago and it had some walkmen in there, so i heard them... and then i got on the freeway, and caifanes came on, and i doo-doo-doo-da'd my way to the post office and rang the bell, got back into my car and heard some baby c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon, man those von bondies sure know what they want and then i saw this old asian guy crossing the street with a barbie backpack and it was hilarious and it was just at that point when he was crossing that peligroso pop was  in that tiny instrumental intersession intramural part and when he stepped onto the sidewalk and i gassed it the song came back on. PERFECT! Around the corner i went smiling and whistleing to why it's only the turks business why it's istanbul and not constantinople, it's been a long time gone. another corner passed and to my left i spotted this figure with a purple dress holding a sign that read haunted mansion. i want in. another asian guy, this time with a shopping cart full of children for sale and another barbie backpack.
out of my car i got and hop skipped jumped out into the non-existant grass and hallo-ed everyone in my view and jumped through the open doorway and talked a mile a minute to ryan and he thought [still thinks i think] that i was on something. i'm high on... good music and great weather...
it's been overcast cloudy gray semi-cold all day. i love it! it's so perfect, no sun hurts my eyeballs yet i still don't have to wear a jacket. ches!

ok i'm off to find something to do

call me emerson

i was cleaning up the pizza section and they put some roasted lamb thing next to me and it seriously smelled like warm milk...

why the hell did the lamb smell like warm milk?!




and the smell was so strong it's as if i were tasting it in my mouth...
it brought back memories of when i was little haha

everytime i wake up from a vivid dream and can only remember bits and pieces of it, only to have those bits and pieces forgotten, i feel as if i had amnesia, and knew it.
it bothers me.

i think it would just be better to not even have the first fragments in the 1st place, that way i wouldn't even have to think about it.

[ June 18, 2002 ]
Terry later took me to the bug room where there are gazillions of bugs in containers, like those old- old ship suitcases, and there with the bugs were a whole bunch of carcasses, some partly eaten while others just bone with a bit of skin on them. I think a bug got into my hair, but that means it might eat me alive, oh well.

[ June 06, 2002]
I have two other finals today, English AP and Physics.
English it hink is going to be all right, I made a newsbroadcast thingamabobber and teh ending credits are really cool! I put Heroes del Silencio's "Entre Dos Tierras" on in the background.

[ June 10, 2002]
Everyone here has something cool about them, be it their accent, their life back home, or whatever.

[ June 12, 2003]
This is an exerpt from what I wrote while on the plane and at the airport:
I just got on the plane for Albuquerque, the other one was for Phoenix. It's so funny how adults think that they act differently from adolescents... yet they, like us, act the same way in some instances.... Why do adults feel as if they need to strike up a conversation where ever they go? It's funny becuase we do that too. I say WE because I sometimes do this also.... [It seems that] I'm able to recognize and understand the different behavior of many different types of people

[ June 18, 2002]
I started working, already, on Wednesday and what I've been doing is just either writing the MSB number and the sex of the animal on the skeleton and skull or putting away the skins of the dead animals, such as spotted skunks, pigs, bats, rodents, etc. Today I got to pet the skins of a cheeta, a bear, a beaver, a skunk, an otter, and all of these other skins that were close to where Terry and I were putting away what needed to be put away. That was so cool. :)

[ June 19, 2002]
Ok, so today I helped Brian and Paul skin a mountain lion. Well, not exactly, since it was already skinned and it only had the bones in its paws and its skull still intact. But still, I helped them take some of the fat off of the skin... What I think was a bit gross, now that I think about it, is that I didn't think it was disgusting while I was doing or even now... It was kind of, scratch that, it IS cool. I smelled like a butcher shop after that, but it's all good in the liposuction with a scalpul of a dead cat.
HUM... I might even be doing some more of this tomorrow! Changuitos!

[ July 07, 2002]
I got to work on some tags for some mice specimens today and then I tied them to their rear right leg. There were about 44 (probably more) mice floating around in this jar full of "70%" alcohol, so that they wouldn't rot, and I had to take them out with some huge "pinsas",put them on a little tray, put them in order of tag, tie the tag on their leg, dump them into ANOTHER jar and when all of the "mice", they're actually perymiscus (blob), were in the jar, I had to fill it up with some alcohol. The old alcohol was all orangy colored because of the blood that had dripped out of the mice after they were dead. I also took some notes as Paul and Brian disected another mountain lion, it was really cool. I'll have to upload the pictures once I get them developed, but they're not for the weak of heart.

And we also went to the zoo on Saturday! The polar bears were the best, though.

[ July 23, 2002]
I think that the White Sand place was the best, no offence to NASA. Amy's mentor let her borrow his little plastic saucer thing and we got to ride down the giant sand dunes on that thing. Some dunes were so steep that we kept falling off.
I also heard, from some sources, that Jackson Stae went to the Gulf of Mexico and to New Orleans and Cal State Los Angeles went to Disneyland... we went to a giant sand box.

"i was looking at some random shapes the water was making off the bridge and this guy who was originally from martinique but went to live in france and has now lived here for 10 years started talking to me. an hour later my hands were cold and i said i had to leave. then he responded with this: alda, since you are cold, i propose we sit there on that bench and i put my arms around you to make you warm. all with a slight french accent as he spoke english.

alda said. no thanks i don't like hugging, and i must really be off
shook hands and said good-bye.

his name was sam"

i was reading all the posts and flyers about the walk-outs and such here and i was just surprised at the misspellings... someone should seriously proof-read them. if they want to be taken seriously, they need to sound at least somewhat intelligent, don't they?
 

and those kids just walking out for the hell of it, they would have been better off in school, at least there they wouldn't have gotten tired walking around doing nothing! and i bet most kids don't even really know what the walk out is about...
 

i was watching the news and there was a story about a school in oceanside and they interviewed 2... TWO kids and both were (with thick hispanic accents) i just wanna go back to school, these people rioting shouldn't be doing it

it's called a RIGHT. a right to show others PEACEFULLY how you feel about a certain law, a certain way that people are being treated, or mistreated. i can understand about how some kids would want to go to school if everyone was being disorderly and such, but they shouldn't be NOT able to display how they feel.
 

another "important person" they interviewed in the news also compared mexican adolescents to goths. he said that just because you see mexican teenagers waving the mexican flag around we had made it political. he asked the viewers why white kids who were goths or punks and such weren't considered political, that they were just going through what every teenager goes through. personally i don't see any goth kids proudly representing their roots, demonstrating against being tanned or the need for jet black hair or whatever it is that they WOULD stand up and fight for. their lifestyle is not political, and that's all being a punk or a goth is, it's a lifestyle one chooses to live. being mexican does not mean that just one day you decide you don't want to be mexican anymore, it's a culture, a heritage, tradition, and family. you don't just choose to be mexican unless you change your citizenship, like here in the united states. in the same news report they asked what was done to these kids to choose to wave the mexican flag proudly OVER the american flag. it's because we know where we came from. we know exactly what country, what state, what city, what town, what family we came from. most of us are proud to be mexican, chilean, chinese, russian, guatemalan, taiwanese, brazilian. and no matter how many generations we might live here in the united states we will still look at our roots that we've been able to keep and associate with them.
 

another thing that got me frowning was a news show that was reading off some comments to the editor or something like that. they were mainly what seemed to be from viewers from the east coast and north area, virginia, north carolina, wisconsin... i dunno other places too. anyways, some were commenting things such as students shouldn't be able to protest and that illegal immigrants were taking all the jobs and that teenagers who protested should be suspended and if they did that twice that they should be expelled. excuse me, but isn't that in our rights?! and they can't say that those are not in our rights as students because most of us were born in this country and are AMERICANS, just as much as any other person born in this country is. I do not see why protesting should jeopardize your education through a third source such as expulsion unless you yourself were not able to handle your studies, not because you were EXPRESSING YOUR RIGHTS as an AMERICAN CITIZEN.
 

on the news there was also a man talking about how thousands of people sneak into the us and are willing to die to get in here and how no other country is like that. hundreds of people die around the world in ALL of the borders, not just in the US. guatemalans sneak into mexico, moroccons into spain, algerians into france, the us is not the only country in the world that has problems like that, although they may BE more publicized.
 

others say that immigrants, including illegal immigrants, take away from the US economy, yet, "Waslin's group and others seeking to expand the rights of immigrants to the United States say based on their findings, the economic balance falls in favor of an immigrant-friendly society." [fox news march 30th, 2006]. immigrants make up, especially in california, a lot of the population and without us who would do all the jobs that no one else wants to do? immigrants, illegal or not, are hired for many jobs because NO ONE ELSE APPLIES. i bet that if two people applied, one being someone who had been born and raised here in the united states, had a high school diploma, and was "american", and another who had a thick accent or didn't even speak english applied for the same job the one who was "american" would get the job. so why do people say that we are taking their jobs away if they don't even apply for them? do people ever consider that?
 

i don't even know if people are thinking about back in the day when their own grandpappys were once immigrants themselves. where do you think they got those italian, german, swedish, greek, russian, spaniard, english sounding last name? i don't see any White-Clouds up there passing the laws against immigration. if it hadn't been for immigration in the 1st place they wouldn't be here. PLUS, it has only been through purchases and wins in wars that america has gained it's land, or else all of us in california, oregon, washington, nevada, arizona, new mexico, texas, colorado and many other states would still be under MEXICO, and florida would be part of spain, and louisiana, georgia, and other states in the south would be part of france. weren't many of the taylors, whites, smiths, jones, johnsons and many other "traditional" last named people the ones who brought millions of, might i add, IMMIGRANTS that they called slaves, into this country themselves? why must it become a felony to be not of this country? this country was BUILT on IMMIGRANTS, their blood, sweat, dreams and tears!
 

and last but not least, was this republican asking the american folk to go to mexico to fly the american flag or the immigants to do it? and does he not know that they would also have to go to every single country they came from because not all illegal immigrants are from mexico. that's stereotyping, and i don't think those politicians should do that. tsk tsk.

"Referring to a wave of demonstrations in recent weeks, Rep. Virgil Goode of Virginia said, "I say if you are here illegally and want to fly the Mexican flag, go to Mexico and wave the American flag.""

'Mar, todo el ambiente huele a mar
mucho calor
sudores en la piel, sudor sabor a sal'


hay veces que solamente quiero sonreír y bailar. y en este exacto minuto me siento así.

Party last nite, i haven't been out and about with the pals for a while. It was nice :]

And February is coming soooooooooooon!